cny's here. the feeling's there. but it feels as if something's lacking. an empty space that wad it is. and the space belongs to my baby. being seperated from him these few days aint nice. being sick and all i need to be there for him and watch him sleep and wait for him to wake up so that i can make some food for him in case his mom's out. but im not. whatever i wan to do is all talk. i cant do nuts unless im there with him. but damn it has to fall during cny. my mom's not gonna accept if i told her im heading out and not going visiting. many times i almost did, and then she'll bar me up at home. missing him aint doing much healing. talking to him eases up a lil but he cant really talk. and so i've been a bitch again. mainly asking if he has been thinking of mi. how bimbotic right. i noe. but that's how a girl thinks. i also wanna know how ur day has been. it's not like i was chattering on about me though. hais baby im sorry if i led u thinking that im onli concerned if u think of me. but i wanna noe everything abt u still. but it's kinda hard when i hear ur hoarse throat, hence i wanna end the convo asap. baby im sorry. it was really sweet of u to save that 30s for me to talk on the phone with ya. baby i miss u so damn much and i dont wan u crying for me anymore le. please. do u noe that it's so hard wanting to pick up the phone 20 times a day to hear ur voice, but only to rmb that u cant talk. im sorry for being a such a chatterbox. next time i'll just listen and u'll talk. hope u really understand that all i want is for u to be happy and feel loved. soon i promise, i'll see you again. baby i love you. dont let me go. please. i still wanna watch u slp and feel ur arms around mi till we grow old and our teeth grow out.
**it's just so hard being your prefect girl, and im still trying.**
you’re the one that I want, the one that i need i’m sorry about the pain i made you feel that wasn’t me, let me show you the way i looked for the sun, but it’s raining today i wore a disguise cause i didn’t want to get hurt but i didn’t know i made everything worse you told me we were crazy in love but you didn’t care when push came to shove if you loved me as much as you said you did then you wouldn’t have hurt me like i ain’t shit now you pushed me away like you never even knew me i loved you with my heart, really and truly late nights, just hoping me in your arms at times we was off i was scared to show you now i want you to hold until you can’t hold me without you, everything seems strange your name is forever planted in my brain damn it, i’m insane,take away the pain take away the hurt i guess everything you said was a lie i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes now I’m not even a thought in your mind i can see clearly, my love is not blind i just wish everything could have turned out differently i had a special feeling about you i thought maybe you did too our first day, it seemed so magical we hit it off and i knew it was real but now i can’t take all the pain that i feel reach in your heart, i know i’m still there i don’t wanna hear that you no longer care i thought you’d be there for me, this i confess you said you were be there for me, was that a lie? now i’m nothing to you i just thought we were meant to be i guess now, we’ll never know the only thing i want is for you to be happy whether it be with me, or without me i just want you to be happy
just some song lyrics i found across a blog. dun take everthing word for word, baby. coz u noe u were always there for me, while i aint. im a lousy girlfriend, that never fails to piss her bf off regardless of what she do.
